Be You

I have found that keeping my mouth shut only pushes the feared confrontation further into the future where it has time to build up in intensity while simultaneously moving further from it's appropriate application. It also builds up bilious venom in the belly that attaches itself to everything that I do until it is released.

Don't speak your mind, though. "The mind" is just the scar tissue of our past. A post traumatic response, and it's responses are just echoes of what you "should have done" in the past.

Neither should we speak from the heart, because that is either purely emotional defensiveness or emotional manipulation and the emotions are very easy for outside forces to bend to their own will.

No. Speak what bubbles up from your depths. Let out the thing that you keep inside. The thing that you were told to put away. The thing that they said was less than human. That thing is YOU.

Release it in the moment that it arises for that is where it belongs.

It may be full of rage, and rightly so. You have been held under pressure your whole life.

It may express itself violently, and rightly so. Expressions happen on the outside, and words are tools that the mind uses to avoid confrontation or to lure the unwilling or unwitting.

What is inside you may cause untold destruction (and it likely will), but there's only one way to create something.

You must destroy what was.

You are not wrong for bringing destruction. You are not wrong for striking the person who refuses to hear your voice.